"No matter how hard you fight it, you fall. And it’s hard.
Except if there’s an upside to free falling. It’s the chance you give your friends
to catch you." - Grey’s Anatomy.
Alright, my mid-terms are starting from tomorrow. So what’s the
right thing to do? Exactly! Get a crazy TV show addiction. But no, this isn't
about the show. This isn't about philosophy, this isn't about humor. So what’s this
about, let’s just go ahead and see where it goes, maybe it is about the show
after all.
LIFE has changed, for good, for now. No, not trying to be a pseudo
pessimist here but if you read my last post you know what has changed. The
thing about changes is, you never know how long they are going to last. With
major changes comes major transformations (yes sue me for stealing the
Spiderman tagline). For one, I have lost the art of concentration. Yes, my
attention span has reduced to less than that of a sparrow. So mid terms are
officially screwed. But that’s not what is bothering me right now. In fact it’s
the least of my concerns. The thing with attention span is, it’s required for
far more important activities than study. To begin with, reading. The lost art
it seems. It's been years since I waited for this moment, when I can
read the stuff I want to read, as much as I want to read, without a hint of
obligation to do something else, without the urgency to finish as fast as I
can. And now that I have finally reached that stage, I seem to have lost the
capability to read. Did I wait too long? Is it a skill you lose if you don’t
practice it frequently enough? I don’t know and I hope it isn’t. Just want to
go back to where I left it, for once I do not have the strength to start all
over again.
While we are still ranting, one more custom made cliché. Why
do we ever get over people we used to like? There are stages of letting others
into your life: you meet them, you like
them, you get to know them, you like them some more and then somehow you never
realize when they become a part of your existence. Then, as time passes, in
between those close moments and those distances that seep in, somehow, slowly
you drift apart even when you never intended to. You meet new people,
interesting people and the cycle continues. I want out, I want to hold on to people I have in
my life currently, I want to break the cycle but this transformation I talked
about earlier is exactly what might cause this cycle to start spinning all over
again. It’s scary.
Anyway, let’s just hold it there. Not the post I wanted to
write but if you don’t let your thoughts free fall when you write, you don’t
deserve to write at all.
Adios, pray that I don’t flunk in what might probably be
among the last sets of exams I give in my life :D
when you write,
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you don’t deserve to write at all.
(It rhymes) :D
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